Wow...dreaming of Moscow and writing my new fic.

[fanged_angel]

I've decided to update my LJ, because I had a lot of thoughts during the night that I honestly don't remember now. I slept poorly and could only make dreams of me in Moscow, in the snow and watching the Worlds right there. I think it would break my heart not to go, but I'm probably not that lucky as to go.*sighs*
I have finally decided that I bloody despise my ex.I can't stand her anymore. And it was not my bleeding fault. Not entirely at least. She's a beautiful person on the outside, but a Dementor on the inside. I'm not good for her, she's not good for me. I need a different person, I need someone a few years older than me, more experienced than me, because I need to find out my sexuality, I need to be certain of it. Well, I am almost certain of it, but as I had no _real_ relationship with a girl, well...
Am I living in my imaginary world? Am I living in the worlds I create in my writing? I don't really think so, but then again i might be wrong. I think that if i'd live in my imaginary world all the time, i wouldn't care so much about others, especially about people that I shouldn't let them hurt me.
Oh well...as I told Aurea in a comment I feel very cuddly today. I need a hug...and some chocolate. And the 2004 Worlds EX. And someone by my side. And harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban movie ( come on already!). Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera.
I'm so glad Steph and Aurea can stand me and be my friends, there aren't many people that like me. Thanks again!

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[sectioaurea.livejournal.com]

I do need hugs. I always do. (Everybody does, eh?)

And there's no need to worry about me. I come and I go. Flutter in the sun and in the dark. This house is not my home. Ecxept when we're all byrocratic.

Oh, I knew I would make it. *Smiles.* Moscow...

[fanged-angel.livejournal.com]

I give all the hugs in the world, to you and Steph. Everyday.
*also dreaming of Moscow*