I have a weird problem with my sexuality too. And relationships definitely suck and reality is definitely a bitch. And I was very disappointed in this relationship, but not by her, really. I'm beginning to think I have too many expectations from others.
I had two boyfriends (imagine that). I had one when I was 11 (!) and it lasted five months (!) and I had the other when I was almost 12(!) and it lasted (to my supreme surprise) 2 years (!!!). I have a very big problem because I put too much of myself in relationships, and that sucks big time because I'm usually the one that gets her heart ripped. This time, I broke up with her because it just wasn't working even if I still love her. Shit, I don't think I really know what love is. And who said I'm brave? I'm not. I'm scared as shit of falling in love, which I always end up doing.*sighs*
I think you're much more brave than I am, actually.
And I still feel like shit.
Maybe I really expect too much from others. i don't know. I'm too young for all this crap. And I was always too mature for my age, and making my poor parents desperate.
See you around Aurea.